Thursday, June 14, 2012

To her mother..

5 years ago, while I was blissfully enjoying my newlywed year and getting ready to celebrate our first anniversary, you found out you were expecting a baby. I'm sure you were scared, nervous, maybe even excited. I don't know how stable your life was, but I have no doubt that you loved the little life you were growing. Then, on April 4, 2008, she was born. I'm sure she was beautiful and perfect. I can imagine the love you had for her when you stared at her perfect little features and rubbed her little head covered in red hair. You named her (hidden for her security) and no doubt she was your princess. She has siblings - are they older? Did you have children at home you were struggling to provide for too? How old were you? Were you married to (hidden)'s daddy? Even with all the questions, I think you took her home. Then, somehow at 5 months old, sweet baby girl entered the orphanage. Is that when you gave her up? Or did something happen earlier and you had to give her up then?  I wonder if you knew before you gave her up what you had done to her. I know you loved her so much and that you wouldn't have given her up if you thought you could raise her. I know you hoped she would be adopted by a family and taken care of and loved. I hope they tell you that we adopted her. I hope they tell you that this mama and daddy love her so much no matter what. I want to thank you for choosing to give her life and for loving her enough to give her the opportunity to be our daughter. I promise you that we will love and cherish her forever and that we will give her everything she needs. She'll get to go to the best schools and she will have wonderful doctors. She has sisters who will play with her and annoy her and love her too. I'm so sorry that you won't get to watch her grow. I know that breaks your mama's heart.  I want you to remember that in your heartbreak, you've added a piece to my heart I didn't know was missing. 

3 comments:

  1. This is so beautiful. I've often thought about and prayed about her mother too. I hope that she knows how loved "Sweet Girl" is already! I can't believe you are leaving to meet her in a few days--its literally an answer to my prayers!!! I'm so excited for you and for Sweet Girl!

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  2. From this moment forward, I'm going to have to stop reading these post! Seriously, I can't handle this!

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  3. I am so proud of you, my precious daughter, for your heart, your love, your kind spirit and your tenacity. The world needs many more like you. I am glad to be your mommy and I think now you understand how much I have loved you and will forever. Safe travels my love.

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