I wanted to write a happy post today, something uplifting for this holiday weekend, but the fact of the matter is that life isn't happy for millions of orphans. As I drifted off to sleep last night, I couldn't help but think about how sweet girl's nights might go.
For my own girls, it's pretty simple. We get in pj's, read a couple of books (or just throw them), get some snuggles in, sing Jesus Loves Me and then it's off to dream land with their seahorses. Sometimes, after bath, we read without PJ's too. They love it.
And, well, sometimes it's off to sleep before we make it upstairs too.
But then I think about sweet girl. How does her nighttime routine go? Does she get any individual attention? My heart hopes so, but my brain knows better. Does she cry herself to sleep or rock to sleep? Does she suck her thumb? Then, what if she has a bad dream, or can't sleep, or doesn’t feel well? Do the staff care enough to go sit with her or rub her back so she can get back to sleep? Does she get yelled at or punished for waking up or getting out of bed? Almost certainly the staff is minimal overnight; and it seems that most of the orphanages are under-staffed as is. I don't know what they can do, if there are only one or two adults and several children happen to wake up at the same time. (And in one big room, probably when one kid cries they all wake up). She been there 4 years now, it’s all she knows, but does that make it okay? What if she has an accident at night? Do they go change her & her bedding -- if so, are they rough about it & angry with her? Is she lucky enough to get a hug, to be told it's ok, no big deal, we'll get cleaned up and tell a story while you go back to sleep? (The last, I suppose, is unlikely.) What if she's hungry, or thirsty? Can she get a snack or a drink of water?
She deserves so much more than this. We are racing to get her because every night I spare her from that place is worth it.
We got an update from our agency, it wasn't what I wanted to hear. I wanted to hear, you've been submitted. Or, at the very least, you're being submitted next week. Instead, it was you won't be submitted until June 12. That's more than 2 more weeks. The probability of June travel is pretty much out, although I will still pray for it because who am I to keep my God from performing a miracle.